Struggles from being bilingual 

 I was growing up in a hispanic household where we all spoke Spanish, I would not hear any English being spoken. I was not too scared to enter school because I knew many people didn’t know English as well because we are all new. That is when I started to dislike english. It isnt my best skill. I was lucky when I went to pre-k that my teachers spoke spanish because they helped me understand but once i got to kindergarten I was struggling. Math and Science was an easy pass but English was the only thing I was not good at. At home I would always speak Spanish in order to communicate with my mother and father. Learning Spanish at home and English at school was not easy to manage. Going back and forth between English and Spanish confused me so much. 

  Fast forward to 5th grade my teacher told me to write a paragraph to my middle school self. I did not know how or where to start. Throughout the year the teacher did help us write paragraphs for homework she gave us but I just did not seem to get good evidence or a well detailed paragraph. My teacher also encouraged me to read lots of books or paragraphs that people wrote in order to understand what to do. Many other students were so good at writing their paragraphs. I remembered one of my friends’ paragraphs was written so well that my teacher would literally favorite her because of her writing skills. I felt upset that even though she was my friend she would not help me with writing. She was the one that would discourage me and instead of helping she would always show off her work and how skilled she was in 5th grade. That made me feel not too good about myself.The best thing my teacher would do is she would give me feedback and she would give me a few extra days to finish my paragraph which I was thankful for. I do not remember her name but thanks to her she did have patients with me and helped me write better. I felt better about myself throughout the school year. By the end of the school year she told me how much I had improved. 

     Going into junior year my english teacher, Ms.Gendron, had told us that she would help us write paragraphs. All year she would make us read and then write about a certain passage. She would make us do that every single day at the end of the period. This honestly helped me improve even more because once she told us to write a literacy narrative or write a paragraph in the character’s point of view and I knew what to write about. She liked how I really wrote the perspective of the character and if I made a mistake she would always correct me and I learned from it. Which also reminds me of my senior year teacher, he would make us write paragraphs that we should not write certain words. We could not use I, they, them, he or she. He told the class that we should specify who we are talking about because the reader will not understand. Unless you are only writing a paragraph just about that person. I thought I was doing good but he did point out things I wrote and honestly I did not know I made the mistake. He will constantly make us do this every single day as well and I sometimes had help from my sister. She would help me use even stronger words. 

       I believe my writing can improve much more. Sometimes I do realize that I run my sentences or sometimes even repeat some words without noticing. This is why I think it is important for other people to edit or give an opinion on our writing. Talking about literacy, I have not read a book ever since high school. The last book I remembered reading was “Bodega Dreams” which was so interesting and I love reading books when I can relate to them. I had read another book a while ago and it talked about their broken language. I relate to people that say that they have a broken language because I think I also have a broken language. Now that I have learned English and am a lot more fluent, my Spanish is starting to get worse. The words I speak to my mother are a combination of both which I do not like because I would love to speak the language I grew up learning. With people that speak only Spanish I can not communicate with them fluently. I think it is time to learn Spanish once again.